What a Guy...

Our little Derick who is not so little anymore. According to him, he is now a "pre-teen." Having him home these past couple months has been so wonderful. He is such a good boy. He is SUCH a big help to me with the other kids. We have fun together. I love talking with him about horses and lizards and dogs and pretty much any living creature that exists. His goodness is immeasurable. So last week when I started feeling like he should be back at Pathway, I could not help but want to just be selfish and keep him home with me. I'm not sure why I started feeling this way. Things are going great with HS. All the kids really enjoy it. We briefly entertained the thought last Friday about going back to Pathway and Derick was leaning towards going back. Yesterday, I decided to ask him what he would if choose if the choice were his alone. He was not sure. So we made a pro/con list. There were more pros for HS and no cons for HS and only 1 con for Pathway. He still felt like he wanted to go back. So I asked him to go and pray about it and spend some time alone to ponder on his thoughts. E did. Later in the afternoon, we talked again and decided he would go back. My heart is happy for him and totally broken for me. I enjoy him, I will miss him. I am a wreck! I am thankful that I really like Pathway and that he has a great teacher that is excited to have him back. Derick got right up this morning and got ready. He was so excited, he barely said good bye I me this morning. He did say, "thank you."So here I sit, eyes full of tears waiting to spill over. Praying once again, that I am doing right by my boy. By all my children. The only constant in this crazy life of mine is change. So on to another new adventure. I miss you my Bubba Love!!